i am grateful..

Its been a long week. I am glad its almost over. I am working the next 2 weeks at the same school. i was really excited about being in the same place for a while. unfortunately, it's been rather challenging. the girl i am working with has a full time nurse with her at school as well as a full time aid (me for the time being). They have yet to figure out whom her permanent aid is going to be for the school year. she is a 'mainstream' 3rd grade classroom. she is cognitively at the level of a 3 or 4 year old. her main language is sign language. 

what's been hard. not knowing what to do with her most of the time. most of the classroom activities are way too advanced for her. she has been with the same group of kids since kindergarten and i think socially its a really great experience for her. academically, i am not sure how much she is getting out of it. the school psychologist does yoga with her every day. i think thats fucking awesome. 

It appears as though if i were interested in a full time/permanent position, i would be able to work at this school. what i am realizing more and more this week is that i am not sure how much longer i want to do this kind of work. working in the public school system as an aid feels really limiting, as far as how much i can do. for a long time i have been thinking about going back to school for art or music therapy. i think a good next step for me would be to contact someone i know that has gone to school for that. what their experiences/process was like..

my friend and i hung up an art installation this evening. the show is tomorrow. its an art show for procrastonators. its been a really fun project to work on. i want to invite more creation and collaborative projects into my life.

and its been fucking gorgeous out. people say that this happens every september in portland but i dont remember it ever being this beautiful. i have been riding my bike to work and every morning i am just so grateful to be alive and moving..

my housemates keep picking apples and making all sorts of delicious things with them, let's just say i have had crisp 3 times this week. things must be good.